why not celebrate dec.25

Jesus was not born on December 25, 2BC, when the Magi (three wisemen/king) presented their gifts.
When the Magi arrived, Joseph and Mary were no longer with Christ in a stable, but in a house (Mt.2:11).
Jesus was born in a stable in the early evening hours (just as the Jewish calendar advanced to 1 Tishri) of September 11, 3BC.
Jesus had been circumcised (Lk.2:21) and dedicated at the Temple some 40 days after His birth (Lk.2:22-24).
Soon after the Magi left, Herod killed the male children in and around Bethlehem who were two years of age or younger (Mt.2:16).

for non christians and self claimed christians you can search more of the above facts on the internet

all children under the age of two were slain shows that Herod was taking every possible interpretation into account for the time of Christ's birth, since it was not clear in astrological interpretation whether the appearance of "His star" signified the conception or birth of the baby. These evidences show that Jesus was some months old when the Magi arrived.

it was true that the magi followed the stars (constellations-note not a star) for direction to Bethlehem. due to the observation of clusters of astronomical phenomenal events happening in 3BC/2BC Jupiter is expected to be closer to earth and will stand still for several hours in 68 latitude right above Bethlehem.. Then on December 25, 2BC, when the planet Jupiter came to its stationary point in mid-Virgo and was in meridian over Bethlehem, the Magi arrived in Bethlehem bearing gifts meant for a king. the romans was very diligent in recording the activities of the empire and astronomical records of 3BC/2BC is proven and accepted by modern astronomers to had happened. when we put the puzzle into pieces base on roman, astronomical and biblical records Christ was born sept. 11 3BC. however you have to explain that to the pope. me ill just sit around and try to experience how lonely i could be.

home alone

while non Christian Taiwanese prepare hundreds of activities for this cold Christmas season im stock in my humble storage shelter, without regards to the hassle and bustle of the outside world. for the first time in my life I consciously had something to consider my first time, dec. 25 will come, and I will be waiting for it alone. I can not imagine how I could decide to stay foot in place that had given me loneliness and sorrows. probably because every year of my life here had to take a 180 degree turn into a different direction. to the unknown territory and uncharted living in which i am searching, of what i dont know. this place did not even provide ample amount of dime to support my inexpensive living here.

now as I do nothing I will have plenty of pondering time steering upward my now known radical provocative thinking. probably I will die thinking doing nothing. this is something that I never thought of. is this a sad story or a protest of my present life. I don’t think so. its just, as always, an expression of thoughts and feelings at this exact moment.

a xmas alone could be a blessing in disguise. as I drift away form religion and embrace spirituality. this could be start of not celebrating Christmas. anyway its just the Georgian calendar who declare the birth of Christ is December 25 where in it was made in favor of religion and custom. now they still cant accept other method of timing, even though they are having hard time chasing the exact time. maybe I will celebrate xmas using the solar time calendar, oh no the atomic time calendar, ah I rather check the decimal time calendar, wait let me think better the new digital standard calendar, can I suggest computer time, I will based it on the international fixed calendar, the astronomical calendar, ISO 8601, symmetry 454. aaaah what the hell I already have the chance not to celebrate why worry at all.

may your Christmas celebration be merry.

master of hypocrisy

the Philippine, where the roman catholic institution had the hypocrisy that will put the sadducees and pharisees of christ time into shame (as the roman catholic said they are hypocrite). this two faced conqueror who colonize the country for nearly 500years(16more years) with the cross as their sword, had done nothing to improved the life of a native.

what the hell are they doing in this country? the morality you speak had never penetrated the Filipino heart and was never practice, don’t you wonder why? it is because you are nothing but an hypocrite, a blasphemer, a manipulator, an opportunist, a wolf clad in sheep wool.

there are hundreds and thousand of issues that you clearly display the double standard of your two faced body that rides the beast. you despise paganism while you practice it. you preach of giving to ceasar what belong to ceasar and give to your god what belongs to your god, but you are accumulating and dominant the wealth and power of ceasar.

and in the issue of the government problem in population explosion, can you just take of your dirty hand fill with spermatozoa away from it and let ceasar do his job for your god sake. you don’t support contraceptives because it advertise sex, the hell with you I saw you fuck you brothers sister you make slaves of this countries virgins. you are a promoter of celibacy. tell that to the good parents, loyal husband and faithful wife, who sleep together every night. if you want to wear chastity belt do it but don’t induce it to others.

in my dreams I was a leader of this country and I required every church, fast-food chain and cinema theater to provide condom vending machine as a pre-requisite for their permit. this for a simple reason. lovers in the philippines had a common pattern of dating. in the morning they will go to church, at noon they will have lunch in a fastfood chain (i miss the taste of Jollibee burger), it will be followed by a small walk to the cinema and after that what happen next is lighting strike, waalahh we forget our condom, nevertheless lets go on with it. and then come the population explosion. the hypocrites will have the government to blame. so for me it’s a no no, you soul eaters are to blame. if you can let your followers follow your morality so do it. values and morality is your self induced responsibility anyway.

maybe come a time that your religion will be an official political party then your hypocritical beastly attitude might stop. as of now just fuck off.

all you need is condom

abortion is advocated by people who themselves was born. for once in my contemporary life I be in agreement with the attitude of the roman catholic towards abortion. it is a first degree murder. and the sentence is everlasting condemnation and excommunication without parole.

it is a very simple fact of science that life begins at conception. let say it is just a zaygote and you want to argue on this fact, ok you fucking murderer lets argue. you smoldering shit from hell listen carefully.

those wide pussy hush-hush bitches only realize that they are carrying a mammoth responsibility with in them by a month(the least) after conception. so it is not just a zaygote it is already a fetus in human form with beating heart and a working brain. by eight weeks, that’s two months, the fetus is already fully formed and will develop until birth. and the worst common practice is the abortion of 15weeks old fetus. it is already a child with in. the murderers will scrap, chop-chop and then vacuum the precious. try to scrap your hands put it in a meat grinder and vacuum it, you low class monster. what the fuck, is there any point of argument at all!!!??? I make a fool out of myself explaining to this sub-moronic beast. there is no argumentative facts for you, flesh eater. but I know you got a lot of excuses and inhumane reasoning’s. here are your fuckn mind blowing defense, and out of this only the last three reasons with lesser number of induced abortion are considerable, the rest are your bullshits:

25.5% – Want to postpone childbearing
21.3% – Cannot afford a baby
14.1% – Has relationship problem or partner does not want pregnancy
12.2% – Too young; parent(s) or other(s) object to pregnancy
10.8% – Having a child will disrupt education or job
7.9% – Want no (more) children
3.3% – Risk to fetal health
2.8% – Risk to mother's health
2.1% – Rape, incest, other

your first six reasons are just so naïve and pathetic. if you are a woman(?) who would like to spread your legs wide open and get fucked or you are a man(?) who enjoy pounding pussies. then you should know your responsibilities and the consequences of your action. but because you are a “fuckn shithead sub-moronic assfaced pathetic monster” you just prefer to be a “fuckn arrogant blind and deaf ignorant fool” yes that’s what you are and you are guilty beyond reasonable doubt. you don’t deserve the presence of humanity.

the above percentage of cold blooded killers is a collective record of countries who legalize killing. but how about other countries, your god only knows how many children are being killed in an hourly rate.

santa clause

bellyMan in paper and pencil by Rekardu

do you wonder why santa had a big belly?

it is because just like other mascots big bellies are symbol of richness and a comic approach to reality. that even you are a malnourished individual you deserve to buy gifts and fulfill your forced obligation of letting the rich richer.

christmas season is here and what other mascot most appropriate for the occasion than santa clause. the true meaning of santa is long forgotten. not even the image of the child in the manger is remembered.

christmas is the biggest commercials season. the essence of celebrating christmas is eclipsed by good business. there is never a bad business during christmas. imagine a chinese family who don’t even know santa would by a santa item with brand in american name that is made in china…hahaha…you make and then you buy it.

well there is a never ending story on this. but most of you who read my blog are smart enough to continue and elaborate on this. so as we are one in spirit on this joyous occasion, I will end this by reminding ourselves the simplicity of Christmas meaning.

it is giving our life as the baby born child, on this time of the year, had thought us.

may we give-receive, love-joy-peace, the true gift this xmas.

this xmas fever gives me weeks of sleepless nights. ill never again in my life have such a lonely xmas.

Siddha

im in confusion
you’ve brought me peace
im in deep slumber
you’ve open me too see
I forgotten myself
you enlightened my soul

im doing nothing
you’ve squeeze out my abilities
my mind is stagnating
you challenge my intellect
my works is deteriorating
you question my capabilities

you teach me how to open up my lungs
I opened up my hearth
you teach me how to be in the flow
I was directed to you
you teach me what is wellbeing
I enthusiastically live

you had appeared like a firefly
in this dry bush of loneliness
you are the awaited spark
of this mighty furnace
you ignited the bush fire
and burn this grief into ashes

you left me standing on my feet
even now that you are apart
you leave an eternal gift
the knowledge of heart and mind
you promise not to make promises
in this life of memories.

you are perpetually the siddha
of this humble yogi

the american empire

a deadly disease unknowingly creeping with in. in a surprise we consciously realize and discover that such disease is growing malignantly. we try to cure and get rid of it, however as we do so we are destroying the very us. for those who cant afford such a cure will agonizingly wait for the end.

as any other empire in history, the conquistadors bring promises in trade of wealth and richness. the host resources is sucked to the bone by the parasitic colonials. the unguarding civilization is devastated by the locust disguised in a form of a mariposa.

just as rome promise democracy to give supreme power to the nobles. as spain promise salvation with there religion while they salvage every recourses. as mongul promise unity and peace in midst of massacre. the American empire is the most cunning of them all it does not promise anything but it induces. it induces the meaning of the word freedom.

freedom to obey there trade laws. freedom to listen to there dictations. freedom to bow on there presence. freedom to accept there policies. freedom to fear there name.
this freedom is to embrace the american culture, that if you can consider it a culture at all, because culture is the way of living, americans don’t live at all they just merely exist.

America is the perfect definition of a capitalist democratically commercialize country. a place where having the capital means being god. where in everybody wants to be god, in order to be so, bodies should be made as stairways. then humanity is lost.

and whats more chilling is that americans want to be blind and deaf to the fact that this does not work in this diverse world. sooner or later Americans will be put down on there knees and they will eat the ground. however by doing so the world will be once again at the brink of total annihilation. haven’t we learn, when will we learn, will we ever learn.

to be continued

A Loyal Relationship

my dearest lovely RAHKEE (the pretty one, haha they all are) ask this question.

why can't men be loyal while in a relationship? and why is it women are doing the same thing? if that's the case why stay in the relationship?

i cant say a word, but i have an opinion.

when there is loyalty there is relationship. there will be no relationship in the absence of loyalty. so when you are loyal to each other you stay in a relationship. by the time one or both is/are infidel the relationship is off.

the fact is we live in a moment. the past is history and tomorrow is unknown. when we are in a relationship everything is perfectly euphoric. that’s the right thing to do just live each moment. for if we worry about what’s next we just waste our time and put boundaries in a relationship. in which we will not enjoy the gift of love brings. as I have said before the end will come, it will, naturally or by choice.

it is the choice of the other that is most fearful of them all the choice of abandoning the alleluia of moments shared. however that’s the risk that we all have to take, we earn more we loss more, a relationship is more that more it is everything in life. its either the relationship or others, as said and proven to be true 'we can not serve two masters'.

when you hesitate to love, trust, respect and understand the other its better not to commit on a relationship. in this way you would not hurt yourself or your partner, and will destroy nothing in the end. both of the evolved can enjoy the companionship, sharing or even pleasure. but not the intimacy, offerings, sacrifices, rewards, stability and security of a relationship brings. when your into a relationship it is giving not in receiving that we enjoy the fruits, so rather you give it all with no hesitation and doubt or never be in a relationship at all. because in trust there is intimacy, without doubts there is stability and security, without lie there is no fear and if there are sacrifices then we are showered by offerings and rewards

when two persons are clear of the choices they make and understand the consequences of this choices. that’s the time a relationship works and last. it takes two to tango. so both have to make the same decisions conclusive to one. so loyalty is not a question for the other. but a question of me willing to make a choice and stand firm to it. the choice of giving without receiving.

anyway just keep in mind that money, lust and power is the devils favorite toy. the next time your partner go astray. don’t think why he/she is such an infidel. tell yourself this is the time that he/she needed you most. trust me there is no greater love than the sacrifices you make. and believe me you will see thru and give a never ending thanks when your partner do the same thing when you have done wrong.

but if you are proud egocentric self-centered person don’t bother to be in a relationship. I suggest you get a slave. and if the choice is to succumb into money, power and lust, yes relationship is not needed.

for there is love in this world and they are worth fighting for.

afternoon with you

sitting in a four walled cocoon
staring at a window without a view
here I try to shake the claustrophobia
with the reflection of afternoon sun
washing the blue sky into orange

now the beginning of end is here
life will complete its full cycle
for another day to come again
and again the thinking of you starts
the time to let go is never ripe

don’t want the nights to last forever
as I will pursue another endless dream
im left behind but your never fading
I try to catch my breath for sanity
but you take the air away with you

nothing I can do im turning blue
my mind is running in light speed
on a never ending razor blade
its not the way my life can take
but nothing to do than to chase you

for I cant stop the thoughts of you
and all I can distinguish are those days
on our own little universe in the garden
you put an irreversible spell on my intellect
the once free soul is now a slave

I will summon the gods of heaven and earth
for there is no cure but to bring you back to me
even just a shimmering yellow dancing butterfly
a glow in this dark clouded diminutive room
as you spread you wings my eyes locked on you

in my abandoned heart you’ll live forever
there is so much love inside of me
that wanted so much to be unleashed
its uncontrollable so I give it away
take it I don’t want it its yours

when you come into my life I give it all
now you are so far yet so near
here what I have is a memory of you
a moment remember until the day I die
I’m still living just to say I LOVE YOU

Pudja Lo

Pudja is derive from the word puja a hindu ritual. the ritual varies between the hindu sects. puja or pooja is also a common name among women in India.

Pudja Lo, a lady who did abracadabra in my ability to recall, in which her picture is committed to my memory, that I will see her where ever I look.

just a moment ago I watched the movie “before sunset” (a sequel of before sunrise, as good as the latest). such a wonderful movie, with its meaningful candid dialogues. I can see myself thru the only two characters (literally just two, Ethan Hawkie and Julie Delpy, of course with few extras in the movie), they have channeled my thoughts and emotions. they exactly say the words of mind and heart, they put my life into the movie, not in a precise manner but in a multi angled perspective that is in accord to my eye sight. a movie with only seven settings as I known; bookstore, coffee shop, streets, park/garden, ferry, car and apartment. places that im always in, though not often with the ferry and car (pudja experienced the ferry with me too). let say ten spots but this is unique to the fifty five scene average of an ordinary movie. the thing is pudja believe that I could write a novel and this story of before sunset is synonymous to what I have in mind. yeah yeah I know we all did/have this thought that we could have written the story instead of them. but please believe me this is different and can you just let me be!?

what struck me most is the ending where Celine (Julie Dalpy) perform a bohemian dance in her bohemian apartment with her bohemian trash. A bohemian is simply an artist or littérateur who, consciously or unconsciously, secedes from conventionality in life and in art, wherein there product is too called bohemian..---not the people or culture of historical central Europe. The dance of Pudja, a ritual where the soul performs praises to the body that is a medium of an arousing visualization. Now my bohemian soul has succumbed to the conventionality of my body.
OF MISSING PUDJA MY BEST FRIEND

listen to "Into the Death Car" song on the left, and try to imagine how she'll dance to it.

what is absolute?

god? to many and what is god to you is not what it is to me.
religion? a new recognize institution emerge when you sneeze.
time? its never the alpha nor the omega.
space? its infinity is never finite.
love? hahahaha and hahahahaha
nothing? even nothing is time and space.

nothing is absolute than the choice I make on what would be my religion to which I have a god of my preference to whom I freely give my love in an exact time on a certain space.

look into yourself, did god chooses you or you have chosen god? your life is a matter composed of molecular choices. the simple thing that you did a second ago…opening your browser, go into the net, opening this page, reading the blog, agreeing or disagreeing on the content, is all the choices you made. what you will eat, wear, say, do, think, feel…..

absolute is our choices.
our choices is absolute.

you have the ultimate power in this world that need omnipotent responsibility. because you are a person living in the world of people in which your choices will influence the choice of others. they might choose to kill you or offer there life for you. our choices is absolute, there is no turning back or moving forward it is that it is in the exact moment in time and space.

with our omnipotent power of choice we dissolve into nothingness or we create the existence. its your choice to make a choice, you already had chosen and its absolute.